Monthly Archives: December 2011
I have two more days before the new year starts. That means I have two more days before my year of writing begins. I’m rather nervous. I’ve spent so much time waiting for the new year to begin so I can start writing, when I completely forgot that I should have been editing Learning to Lie.
I’ve printed out the second half that I wrote during NaNo this year, and I’ve started reading it. The problem is that I’m not really sure where I want it to go. I have a huge plot hole that I created for myself. I could have just left it alone but no – I had to make Isri know something that Loki has to figure out, only I have no idea what it could be. Something about what happened when he was younger and at war, but I’m not sure what else.
I’m not due to start working on the sequel until June anyway, which means I have time to work on it, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to fix the plot hole in time. I really like that novel, and I’m really excited to write the rest of it. I love my characters, and I can’t wait to see what else they do. I just can’t get completely behind that novel because I don’t have it all planned yet. That was find when I was writing the first one, but now it’s getting to the point where things are going to start happening. They need to go see Kali’s family, but I can’t think of a good reason for it yet, and I’m not sure what to do about the whole Isri thing.
That said, I’m still looking forward to the year of writing. Worst case scenario, I write something else instead of the rest of the Learning to Lie series. I have a lot of ideas. I just need to write them.
I’m also trying to learn Dvorak before the new year. I should have started sooner. I know where all the keys are, which is great, but I’m still really slow. I’m averaging about 16 words a minute, which puts me around 1k an hour. That’s not horrible or anything considering I haven’t even been learning for a week, but I can theoretically type 5k an hour in Qwerty. I need to type at least 4k a day in January to hit my goal – I can’t risk it by typing that slowly.
I’m participating in WriYe for the first time in 2012. I originally signed up to write 500k, but then I started second guessing myself. I’m planning to write 250k for next NaNo. If I can write that much in a month, surely I could push myself to do more than 5o0k all year, right? I was also thinking of the fact that several people are aiming to do a NaNo every month of the year. At first I thought that I would never be able to do that, that it would be too much pressure. Besides, I didn’t even think I had 12 novel ideas to work on.
I’m realizing that that’s not true, not if I could everything from random thoughts that might turn into a novel on day and novels that I already have complete drafts of but which need editing. Here is a list of all the novel ideas I have at the moment:
Tilt Your Head and Smile
Learning to Lie
Works in Progress
The Story of Em
A Chill Wind Blows
Learning to Lie book 2
Learning to Lie book 3
Prep school dream
Spoof of princess stories
That’s 14 different ideas in various stages of production. Considering I need to write at least 2 drafts on any novel before it’s decent, I have plenty of material to get me through a month – and plenty of material to get me through to my goal for 2012: 1,000,000.
Yes, I’m planning on writing a million words in 2012. I know people who have written that much for NaNo, so writing it for WriYe doesn’t really sound all that crazy. I’ve done the math. That’s 100k a month for 8 months and then 250k for NaNo, and I’d still have 3 months off to edit and plan and everything. Technically, planning counts toward your word count, but I want to see if I can hit a million just by using what I write in the novels.
Now for my tentative writing schedule. I say tentative because I’m not sure which story I will feel like writing at any particular time. As I’ve already listed, I have 14 ideas to work on, and I could come up with more. I’m listing them now in order of importance, but that could change. Plus, as I’ve learned this month, I can get behind schedule, so if I don’t finish one novel when I say I will, I will have to adjust my schedule accordingly. That said, here is my writing schedule for 2012:
January: JaNoWriMo (100k)
Rewrite Tilt Your Head and Smile
Finish The Story of Em
Reread Learning to Lie, Tilt Your Head and Smile, and The Story of Em. Make notes on what to fix.
April: Script Frenzy (20k)
Rewrite The Story of Em
June: CampNaNo (100k)
Write Learning to Lie, book 2
Write Degeneration as a novel.
August: CampNaNo (100k)
Rewrite Learning to Lie, book 2
November: NaNoWriMo (250k)
Write Learning to Lie, book 3 (100k)
Rewrite Ascendance (100k)
Rest and read my final versions of things.
Prepare for WriYe 2013
It’ll be a busy year, but I’m looking forward to it. If I can do what I have listed on here, I will have decent drafts of six different novels and a first draft of a seventh one. I’m not entirely sure I can pull that all off, but it’s worth a shot. I know I can write 50k in a week, so writing 100k in a month shouldn’t be too horrible. Hopefully I’ll be able to write a little more in the summer months when I’m not working to make up for the months when I am, but we’ll see. A million a year is less than 3k a day. I can write that in an hour when I’m focused.
I want to be a writer. I have since I was a little girl. There’s very little chance of that actually happening, but it will definitely never happen if I just sit around thinking about stories instead of writing them. This is going to be my year. I can feel it.
I’m still doing that, but I have also decided to start playing with the program yWriter. It’s a free program created by a fellow Wrimo, and it’s really cool. It lets you keep track of all the scenes in your novel and which characters are in how many scenes and which point of view that scene is told from and all that stuff. It seemed too detailed for me to use when I first wrote the novel, but now that I’m in the editing phase, I’m finding it helpful.
Tonight I finished rereading my first draft. I also now have the entire thing copied into yWriter, and I have made my first round of deletions. I have added a couple lines of dialogue or reflection to certain areas, but for the most part, I’ve just deleted passages that were repetitive or stupid. I knew I would lose a lot of words that way, but I was not prepared for just how many I would lose. My novel went from 103,000 to 79,877.
Yup. I deleted 23,000 words from my novel. That’s almost a quarter of my novel, gone, and I haven’t even fixed all the scenes that are in third person but should be in first (which is about half of my novel).
This is going to take more work than I originally though, I think. I don’t really want to rewrite the entire thing, but I will if that’s the only way. My next step is to sit down and figure out what I want the overall plot to be. It’s litfic, so the plot’s a lot looser than in other genres, but I still need to work on it. That’s my goal for tomorrow: figure out which characters to keep and which parts of the plot to keep and expand on and which parts need to be deleted.
I’m hoping to read 26 fiction books and 26 nonfiction books. Here’s my fiction list:
- Summer Knight by Jim Butcher
- Death Masks by Jim Butcher
- Blood Rites by Jim Butcher
- Dead Beat by Jim Butcher
- Proven Guilty by Jim Butcher
- White Night by Jim Butcher
- Small Favor by Jim Butcher
- Turn Coat by Jim Butcher
- Changes by Jim Butcher
- Ghost Story by Jim Butcher
- Side Jobs by Jim Butcher
- White road by Lynn Flewelling
- Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen
- Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett
- The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
- Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins
- Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins
- Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace
- Conversations with the Fat Girl by Liza Palmer
- Thin is the New Happy by Valerie Frankel
- Gods Behaving Badly by Marie Phillips
- Prep by Curtis Sittenfeld
- The Man of My Dreams by Curtis Sittenfeld
And here’s my nonfiction list:
- Everything Bad is Good for You by Steven Johnson
- Harmful to Minors by Judith Levine
- Forbidden Bodies by Shelley Bovey
- Fat!so? by Marilyn Wann
- Through the Language Glass by Guy Deutscher
- Pink Brain, Blue Brain by Lise Elliot
- Erotic Innocence by James R. Kincaid
- On Writing by Stephen King
- Consider the Lobster and Other Essays by David Foster Wallace
- How to Be Alone by Jonathan Franzen
- Lapsing Into a Comma by Bill Walsh
- The Death and Life of the Great American School System by Diane Ravitch
- The Omnivore’s Dilemma by Michael Pollan
- The Portable Atheist by Christopher Hitchens
- God is Not Great by Christopher Hitchens
- The Quotable Atheist by Jack Huberman
- The Year of Living Biblically by A.J. Jacobs
- The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolf
- He’s a Stud, She’s a Slut by Jessica Valenti
- The Purity Myth by Jessica Valenti
- When Sex Goes to School by Kristin Luker
Those are two questions I’ve never really stopped to think about before, though part of my answer is quite similar to hers. The main reason I write is because other people don’t write about what I’m interested in. There are many books out there that interest me, of course, but there are very few characters that I can relate to all the time. Most novels feature strong characters, characters that speak up for themselves or who say what they feel even if it makes them unpopular. I understand this, and most of my favorite books have such characters as their protagonists.
But I really want to see in books are characters who are afraid to speak. Characters who don’t have any friends. I’m tired of reading about “social outcasts” who have a best friend they share everything with. I can’t relate to that. I made small talk with people in my classes sometimes, but after middle school I rarely hung out with anyone. I was only invited to one party, and I spent the whole time in the corner by myself because I was too afraid to talk to the people I knew there. I ate by myself most of ninth grade, and two other years I ate with people I barely knew because it was better than being by myself. Even now, when I hang out in the NaNoLanta chatroom, I’m usually one of the ones who lurks and just enjoys reading what other people are talking about because I’m afraid to put myself out there. I was invited to a fellow Wrimo’s party last weekend and didn’t go because I had a mini panic attack outside their apartment and couldn’t bring myself to go inside.
I want to read about a character like that. I’ve read stories about people who say the wrong things in social situations. I want to read about someone who is so afraid of saying the wrong thing that she doesn’t say anything. I haven’t found a book like that. That’s why I write them. Most people try not to write characters who are too much like they are. I aim for that because that is what I would want to read. So, in a way, I agree with Chomsky when she says that she writes for herself.
But I also want to write for others, which is where Chomsky and I differ. She doesn’t care about being published. I want to. Of course, I don’t want to get published so badly that I sacrifice what I find interesting to match what other people want. I, too, find myself unable to change my writing to make other people happy. I will listen to suggestions, of course, and I will change things when I agree that the other person was right, but I can’t really change my style to make others happy.
I’ve found that I can’t write short stories unless they have some sort of deeper meaning. I find them boring otherwise. I wrote a short story for my first college writing class that was an allegory for teen pregnancy and double standards. My teacher told me she would rather I write about a girl who got pregnant, that I shouldn’t use fiction for something like that, that an essay would have been better. I didn’t listen. My next story I wrote more like what she was looking for, but I refused to take a story that was close to me and turn it into something that I would find boring to read about.
And I have to believe that I’m not the only one who would rather have read my story than a story about a girl who got pregnant and had her boyfriend ditch her. I have to believe that I’m not the only one who has that much trouble talking to people. I have to believe that others out there feel how I feel, at least to some degree.
And that is part of why I want to get published. If I would benefit from reading more stories about people like me, then maybe my stories could help other people if they read them, too. Maybe it would help them feel not so alone.
The other reason I want to get published is because it would be really awesome if I could make enough money from my writing that I wouldn’t have to work. I know that’s highly unlikely, but it can still be a dream. As I’ve made abundantly clear in this post, I’m horrible at talking to people. That makes finding a job I would even half enjoy next to impossible. Writing would allow me to work from home and not have to deal with people face-to-face on a regular basis.
Hell, at this point I’d settle just for getting a book published, even if it didn’t earn me enough money to quit my job. At least it would be something I could be proud of. Everyone else I went to high school with has a cool job or his/her own apartment (or both). I don’t have either, and I would be okay with that if I could point to a book on a shelf in a bookstore and say, “Hey, I wrote that.”
At the end of NaNo each year, a new set of forums show up on the site called “December and Beyond.” One of those forums is The Year of Doing Big, Fun, Scary Things Together. Here, Wrimos can make a list of things they hope to accomplish in the following year. Here’s mind:
-Find a job that doesn’t make me want to murder all those around me.
– Finish the novel I wrote for 50k weekend
-Edit both novels that I finished this NaNo
-Win Script Frenzy
-Win both sessions of Camp NaNo
-Keep a blog going for an entire year, writing at least once a week (if not more)
-Build up a portfolio so I can actually apply for writing jobs
-Read 52 books in 52 weeks
That last one isn’t on my list on the site, but I’m adding it anyway. I saw the link to the challenge on the site, and I thought it sounded like a great idea. I haven’t been reading as much as I used to, and that needs to change. I have a huge stack of unread books on my bookshelf, and I’m probably going to get more for Christmas. I need to start reading again.
In addition to making my “to read” pile smaller, reading more will help improve my writing. The fiction books will help me figure out how best to write the stories I have planned in my head (and how to fix the stories I already have on paper), and the nonfiction books will help me think of new topics to write about to build my portfolio.
My original plan was to read 26 nonfiction books and 26 fiction books. Since my to read list currently consists of 22 fiction books and only 8 nonfiction books, I’m thinking that might not actually happen. Still, I’m going to see how close to that I can get. I used to be up to date on things that were happening in the world. I used to be informed. I want to get to that point again.
The week starts on Sunday. That means that each week (either Saturday or Sunday) I will post a review of the book I have just finished. This should help keep me accountable and provide me a chance to practice writing some book reviews.
I had a great month. I met or exceeded all of my goals for myself:
- I wanted to finish a novel. I finished “Tilt Your Head and Smile” and even managed to finish draft two of “Learning to Lie” – finally!
- I wanted to write every day. When I set that goal, I thought I would be lucky to at least write 500 a day. Then I wanted to at least hit goal every day. I ended up writing at least 2k a day. Several days were over 15k, bringing my average word count to 7.4k a day.
- I wanted to hit 75k total. I ended up writing 222,545 words last month, in four different stories. It was amazing. I never thought I could write that much so fast.
- I wanted to be more active in the NaNo community. I went out for drinks with one of the MLs. I hung out in a hotel with WriMos from all over the continent. I was invited to a fellow wrimo’s party. I ended up not going because I had a minor freak out that night instead, but I was still invited.
It’s exciting. People know me. I’m still one of the more quiet ones, but I’m starting to get out there a bit more. I have people cheering for me to do well. I have people who are happy to see my enter the chat. I was included in a race among several Overachievers. It has been my most exciting month in a long time. I’m sad to see it end.
In other news, I was Facebook stalking people today and learned that one of the guys I went to high school with (he was co-editor of the paper with me and was a year behind me) is now teaching Spanish at our high school. That’s so weird. That more than anything else has made me feel like a complete failure. He’s managed to become a teacher already. And what have I accomplished? I’m a school photographer and a columnist for a magazine that can’t pay for articles.
I’m actually really excited about the columnist thing. I’m going to be writing a column called “Unpopular Culture” for the magazine Wildflower. I will have two columns a month and will write an article for the paper issue that comes out four times a year. I’m excited. I’ve already started coming up with a list of topics to write about.
My goal for the upcoming year is to build up a portfolio so I can try to get a paying gig as a writer. I also want to edit at least one of my novels so that I can try to sell it. I can handle rejection letters. I just want to start trying to get something out there. If I can become a published writer, I can handle all the other crap in my life.